Well it's here, my last day of work!  How did it get here so fast and why did it take so long?  What a mishmash of emotion.  Do I dress up or dress down?  Do I celebrate or mourn?  Do I go out quietly or with a bang?

It was just 2 months ago that I told my employer of my decision.  I had been unhappy with working (not my job or the people I work with), just the fact that I was working.  I know, I know, I should have been happy to just have a job.  With so many, many people out of work and struggling, here I am giving up what so many are looking for.

But there comes a time at this stage of life when you are "Done".  That's how it felt - I was DONE.
To be honest, it was a little frightening.  My working income and Social Security was what I was contributing and to think of cutting off half of it was a little scary, but I was DONE.  I was done with working for someone else, done with schedules, done with "have to" be somewhere at a certain time, and done with living my life on someone else's schedule.

Well, today is the day I can put that all behind me.  Tomorrow when I wake up I don't have to do my normal routine.  I can say to myself - "Hum, what do I want to do today?"  It's scary, but most of all it's EXCITING!!  I'm so excited for what's next.  I'm excited to see what the Universe has for me.  I'm getting out of my own way, unloading what I think I HAVE to do and opening myself up to what is good for me and for my soul.

I know whatever is coming, will just what I've longed for all my life, but was too busy to see.  Now I am, and boy am I excited.

I'll keep you up to date on what shows up or not, and how life unfolds.

Have a great day!!

Monday 7-9-2012

The last day of my working career is Thursday this week.  I've decided to try this "retirement" thing everyone is talking about.  The journey to this point has been long, but at the same time short.  My friends suggested I make some kind of journal or even blog about this experience.  So here I go - taking that first step into the unknown.

Oh I've been unemployed before, but always with the goal of securing another full-time gig.  This time, my full-time gig will be me.  This is new territory and quite frankly I'm a bit scared.  So many questions have come up since I made my decision in May.  

How will I define myself now?  When meeting someone new, the question most generally asked is "So what do you do?"  How will I answer that now?  I really don't know.

I will try and document and share my journey.  Wish me luck.

J